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I don't even know where to begin with this... Ok well basically Tiffany ended up going out with Jake and Jake dumped GinGin and Briana and me. GinGin and I got mad enough and sent him this : Jake, I'm sure you have been yelled at so much recently, and I bet you're tired of it. This time, I am not yelling at you, I am not telling you to do anything. I just want to let you know one thing, and you don't have to reply to this. I'd appreciate it if you read all of this, because this may be the last email you get from me in awhile. I am dead serious with every word I say in this email. I may sound ridiculous to you, but I am SERIOUS.
I have no idea where to start with this, so I'm going to say- I know you are in love with Tiffany, and I know that when you're in love with someone, you get attached to them and it's nearly impossible to separate yourself from that person. I know that you have become way more than friends with her, and you have your new friends. And I know you still want your old friends, but right now I feel like an old pair of worn-out sneakers. Your feet are getting too big for me. Whenever I'm around you, you're not Jake... you're... Jacob.
This may sound weird, but I remember when I really, really liked you. It was because you were very smart, funny, helpful and just the most perfect guy-friend a girl could ask for. And when I stopped loving you, it was because you were better off as my friend, because you were just so awesome as a friend. I was still attached you you, but in a friend way. I may have acted like I liked you, but that's because I felt so comfortable around you... I dunno why but you felt like the brother I never had.
I think one of the reasons why I've been so against Tiffany in all this drama is because I'm afraid of loosing you. I miss the beginning of the year when we hung out all the time; now Tiffany is with you all the time. This may sound stupid, but I feel like Tiffany is... replacing me; and all of your new friends are replacing all of us old, boring nerdy friends. (I'm mostly talking about me and Erica on this, but I guess Briana and Evan can count since they were your friends at the beginning of the year along with me) I can't face the fact that you're in love with this girl, and you're moving on. I can't face it. All of this is stressing me out... And I'm stressed out mostly because I never realized how much you mean to me. I never noticed that your friendship is like gold to me. I guess you just don't realize these kind of things until they're gone.
I actually kind of wish you moved to Japan last summer, because this year has put so much stress on me. I've been stressing out so much about loosing you this year. And that's because I can't stand seeing you with Tiffany and all those preppy girls with her. If you were in Japan I wouldn't have to put up with watching you spend your every second with some other people you didn't know the years before...
I've known you for four years now. I've been your friend for four years now. I think four years is enough for us. You've given me personality over the years. You taught me a lot over the years.
Now you have Tiffany. Now you have your new friends. I think you should be good friends to them like you were to Erica and I in the past. I think you should teach them like you taught us. Just try not to betray them like you betrayed us. Let them know when they get annoying. Let them know when you need them. Try not to loose them like you're loosing me.
I think you get my point here. And here's the one thing I want you to know- I am not your friend anymore.
I am absolutely serious. I'm not just going to suddenly become your friend in a few weeks. I'm seriously not your friend anymore. You are not Jake. You are Jacob. Maybe if you're in my classes next year we can have a new start. Erica agrees with every word in this email. For now, Erica and I think this is best for the three of us.
Goodbye Jacob. -Virginia + Erica
~ViRGiNiA~ Ok well, yah. Basically we sent that about a month ago, and we've kept to it since. Well, actually, GinGin, I have something I need to tell you about this and by the time you read this I will have already told you. Anyways, so while this was going on Ysenia and Lillie and I got in a fight. A BIGGGG fight. It turned out not so pretty. Ok so for the past two months or so Ysenia and Lillie and I have been in a fight that started with Celeste and it just escalated after that. I sent her an email by accident one night that was just me venting and then she thought I was serious and it wasn't cool. Because then Lillie sent me an email saying not to make her pull out "a 6 pack of whoop a**"?? THAT DOESN'T EVEN MAKE SENSE!!! xD But like, then Ysenia printed it out and had it in homeroom that next morning and they were all laughing at it about 2 feet away from me and I could hear every word they were saying, and I knew I was getting ready to cry, (GinGin and I seem to be crying ENOUGH in homeroom lately about Jake! I didn't need them to see me crying about this!) so I like ran to the bathroom and GinGin was standing there getting ready to get water and that made me happy, but then I walked to the far corner of the bathroom and cried and Lillie walked in and saw me... That was the end of it. When I finally got yelled at by a teacher by being in the bathroom for no reason, I put water on my face so it didn't look like I was crying and I walked back to homeroom. I sat down at my table and then I saw Ysenia at the table across the room from me. About a minute or so later, Lillie walked in and I saw/heard her say, "She was CRYING!" then they both burst out laughing and Lauren did too, that just DID it for me! I was sooo sad that day, and jsut to make it even BETTER, I walked out of second period and I went to my locker, and I got my books out then Adam, (My best friend whose locker is next to mine), said he was hungry, then he stole my lunch box and opened it and said "CAN I HAVE THIS?" and he pulled out my chips and I said "NO" becaue I hadn't had any breakfast and that's all I had to eat so he was like, "This is why you have no friends! and he threw my lunch all over the hall then I said "It's not my fault Jake's an a**" and he said "He's not, you are!" so then I had to pick up my lunch and everything and he slammed his locker and mine and walked away. I stood up and opened my locker back up and I realized I was the only one in the hall and I was sooo late for class, but his words kept ringing through my head. "This is why you have no friends..." I tried not to let myself cry but I did anyways so I just kinda ran to Algebra and then I just sat down and cried. I had just lost one of my best friends and brothers and I had already lost one that week. I was sooo sad and still am about that. Now anyways, back to Ysenia, we both relized how STUPID this fight was after I sent this email to Lillie and she got all freaked out because she thought I was going to commit suicide. -_- : Subject : You're Right You know what Lillie? You've made me miserable enough, I'm just going to tell you what's going on so you can laugh (Which I know you will) and say "HA! I told you so!", and you can send it to Ysenia and let her print it out and show everyone so they can see how pathetic I really am. ~|~ Ok well, I was crying in the bathroom because of Jacob, yes, but mostly because of that email. I can't believe she'd actually show people. And that's not what made me run off like I did. What made me do that was when I heard Ysenia say, "That made me laugh so hard!" and "She thinks she soo cool!" I also heard from someone I'm not telling you that Jessica thinks I cuss out everyone who says Zach's hot, and that I never stand up for myself and cry too much. I've started to agree with everything on there except for that I cuss out everyone who says Zach's hot. I wouldn't do that, thats dumb. And I know you think I'm stupid for being this emo because two people aren't my friends, but it's so much more than that. Everyone believes you guys and sides with you, I don't have any friends that I can talk to anymore about this except GinGin, and she's not even on my team, you guys just make me feel plain stupid, you guys have each other and I've got no one with me in this, I lost Adam as a friend and he tries to humiliate me as much as possible, I'm in love with someone who hates me, (two someones now, that is.) and I don't see any point in living a life. I feel like going and making out with Corey Eck so everyone will hate me. Every night I try ot fall asleep I ask myself, what's the point of waking up tomorrow? What's the point of living when all you get is made fun of? What's the point of getting good grades if all that's going to happen to me is like what happened to Rick on Degrassi, (Rick went crazy from being made fun of and laughed at and shot a boy and paralyzed him, then tried to shoot another girl and ended up shooting himself.) I'm always thinking, if I just let my grades slip and I just stop caring, I'll end up in Dr. Smiths office and then I'll go to alternative school and then maybe Corey Eck will be my boyfriend and then I can be happy with all the Alternative school people. I can just fail at life later on. Because I don't want ot have to keep my life going on like it's been. There's a new rumor about me every day and everybody believes them, I've only got one friend in this grade that believes me or that hasn't been a part of the rumor spreading, I haven't talked to Desi in about a month and I don't think she cares because she sees me every day but just keeps going, Adam's not my friend anymore, as I found out by having my lunch dumped out in the hallway by him and then having everyone laugh, and that's all because Jake's not my friend.
Now Michael knows I like him, but he thinks I'm pathetic now because somebody finds some way to make an idiot out of me every day now, and I can't help it. I never knew two girls could turn my life around for the worse.
I feel like going and punching Mrs. Ilosky in the face so I could go to Alternative school and be Corey Ecks girlfriend and leave all this s**t behind.
Erica The Pink Trike Riding Princess Of Doom!
Yah it was pretty stupid but then we decided this was stupid os now we're being friendly, but idk if we're really friends yet or not.... D: This is too confusing for one girl to handle. I want to go to Boarding School!
zachrosenlover · Fri May 09, 2008 @ 10:21pm · 2 Comments |
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