To tell the truth, I just haven't felt like writing the past few days... not here, not in the guild, not in my LiveJournal... nothing. I really haven't been feeling very good. Emotions have kinda started to overtake my normal happy-go-lucky demeanor. I just wish that I could be happy again, and it wouldn't have to cost someone elses happiness. I wish I could be 'easy' for someone. It seems like everyone that wants to get close to me is required to fight some outside source of resistance in order to be able to be with me, and I haven't found anyone strong enough to do that yet. They all try for a little while, then give up when it becomes 'too hard'. I can't blame them... it's not like I have anything spectacular and wonderful to offer them other than my love, loyalty, and affection. I just feel like if I were rich, or like, gorgeous... then some girl will go that extra mile for me. They'll beat whatever it is that's keeping them from me. But then it won't be for me... but I wouldn't know the difference I suppose, I'd still be happy.
I just miss her so much.
Zeuromus · Thu Aug 25, 2005 @ 10:29pm · 0 Comments |