I screwed up. See I can admit that. I fully understand my best friend's friends wanting to kick my butt. I am waiting for them too. But what they don't realize is that I looked in the mirror 35 days ago, and the person who stared back at me, was a stranger with no future. I didn't like what I saw so I'm changing. I can be faithful. I will be faithful. I may never be good enough for him again. But I will do my darnest to be who I used to be. And I will fight for him until he tells me that he hates me, and that he's in love with someone else. I won't give up, I can't. Not this time. And all the while these past few months, not a day has passed that I ahven't thought. What the heck have I done? I didn't date anyone else. Didn't stay out all night, just drank and drank. That's what I did until, I stopped fighting myself.See forgiveness for myself, is nothing. But proving that I'm worth taking the chance with again, that I'm worth wanting again, that I can be trusted, that I am worth the risk. That's the world to me. The only thing I ever did with my life that was worth it was loving you. And I'd do it all over again. If only to watch you walk away to someone else. I may never earn your trust again, may never make you feel the way I feel again, but maybe one day, you and I will be friends again. Just maybe one day, I won't be the one that broke you, but the one that you decided was worht another chance, if only for you to get even with...
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