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yup....we all get this way sometimes if we like it or not, we can't choose. well here's my story[[now if u dont wan tot listen to me babbel about things turn bakc and do whatever u were doing]]
okay, yesterday was a very bad day for me... my step-mom and dad argued almost the whole day. and guess what they said that they weren't going to fight in front of my, but they did. i was stuck between them hearing the argument[[not to happy]] and then my step-mom exploded....she starts tlaking about what she was angry about[[yes it's all about her]] she mentioned some things about me.[[which i wasn't suppose to hear and really got me]]
my father stepped into my room and asked if i was alright[[it was obvious i heard the whole thing, my door was open]] i tried to act cool but i let it go, i started to sob for an hour. i hated yesterday, my eyes were bloddy red and i was depressed, i started thinking about suicid again[[oh no! and im still thinking about it]]
u know how i said before i have more freedom at my dad's wrong!
at my dad's i feel more pain,sorrow, and anger everytime im there. i dont want to be around my step-mom she's a demon... but yeah....im still a caged up bird waiting to be set free...and to add onto that i dont have a bf....im lonely as ever..i just wish things looked up more..i feel more pain now then i ever did.....but im still trying to hold onto what i have...
i really dont want to go towards suicid...someone please....help me....help be my light...[[and i act all cheerful all the time...gezze....dont fall for the act...]]