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Where did I go wrong
Can't look you in the eye
Feeling so ashamed
Feels like I could die

Hold me up, don't let go
I've had enough
I'm tired of breathing
Tired of feeling
Tired of looking at the past for meaning
Tired of running
Tired of searching
Tired of trying
But I'm not tired of you

Losing everything
It's something I can't face
Hope is on the run
It's something I can't fake

Hold me up, don't let go
I've had enough
I'm tired of breathing
Tired of feeling
Tired of looking at the past for meaning
Tired of running
Tired of searching
Tired of trying
But I'm not tired of you

I want to feel a change
I don't mind if it hurts
You take away the pain
You're the only thing that's pure

Hold me up, don't let go
I've had enough
I'm tired of breathing
Tired of feeling
Tired of looking at the past for meaning
Tired of running
Tired of searching
Tired of trying
But I'm not tired of you

********. It started off to be such a good day and ended shitty. I had a great time in class and love being in 2 of Radek's periods. I had a great time at lunch and read all of study hall.

I went in for a job interview right after school at EB and got the job, starting out making what I am making now.

Radek and I went out to see The 40-Year-Old Virgin and it was great.

Then his mom called and made him leave.

After four hours of his absence, she JUST decided to acknowledge him.

And she ******** crushed my night. This was the first night since summer began, ended, and school started that he's had off and we've been able to spend a lengthy amount of time with no rushing together.

And she ******** killed it.

Again.

It's ******** Jr. year again.

WHY THE ******** WON'T SHE LEAVE HIM ALONE?!