well ok i dont hate benzy i didnt even care i dont think its my damn lieing once again i do these thing for attention i think but this time i think i hurt benzy i dont want to be that person anymore i need to stop lieing stop acting because they are more of me thasn the person i really am why do i lie so often and about stupid things its like i cant help it i think i crave attention or something but i hate people giving me attention i dont know my mind is ******** confusing not even i understand it......and i lie about stupid s**t like telliung time and my dad and so many other things....well i also lie about life as a stoner i make it look alot better than others i only quit smoking because my friends would have disaproved i wanna ******** a few people in this school most of which have girlfriends i love making out but prefer people with experience so its fun.... i havnt kissed as many girls as i claim well not making out wise and i hate who i am im ashamed of myself but i try to hide it..... my boobs they have always been a issue to me but everyone thinks for a diff reason yet again a lie the truth is not that i think there small someone would be crazy to think they are small i dont even mind them being touched the thing is there not fully seveloped there only partly developed my nipples are still kinda puffy which is rather embarassing thats why i wont show them because im afraid they will be made fun of so i guess it wasnt a complete lie i really dont know why i lie so much i seriously think i am a compolsive liar but im not completeley positive...is that a disease???./....... i cant say i like it but i dont know any other way and if i tell people about it and they find out all the lies ive told we would have nothing because i would have built our friendship on lies so im left being a ................
COMPOLSOVE LIAR....... DONT I HAVE SO MUCH TO LOOK FORWARD TO.
yusukes_bed_slut · Tue Nov 09, 2004 @ 12:31am · 0 Comments |