Revealed Secrets: Part 3
Year four was one of the very worse years of my life so far... All I hoped was the best in my studies because I was in the highest class of math and science. There were the things I needed the most to continue my studies in what I want: I want to be a veterinarian. Jiro and I stayed a happy couple until the day of my birthday, yeah, I know it’s strange. I couldn’t stand him anymore, the number of times we actually don’t spend the time at home… I can count it on my both hands. Every time I went to his place, I always ended up in his bed. Sorry for unsuitable readers… Is love really like that?! I don’t think so.
To make you know one thing, the second I broke up with Jiro, my life turned up side down and made a really big mess. I think I slept with the guy who Yasashiku was jealous of… yeah, kind of right after I told Jiro that it’s over. O.o Why did I do that? I’m not even sure why... Oh my god, that’s wrong, really wrong…
Anyways, have I told you about Amaya? She’s a friend of Jiro and Yukio, the trio of Romanians. (Okay. I’m not racist or anything, just pointing it out. Actually, Romanians are really sweet people, well most of them.) You see, people make groups like that at school… and I used to do the same: Yasashiku, Emiko, Sayoku and I are Chinese people. People also like to group each other with different tags: the skaters (we have so much!), the preps, the nerds, etc. *sigh*
I think that Amaya was the one who made up all these crap. My opinion, maybe it’s her, maybe it’s not, never knew the truth of the story… Amaya used to be a good friend, she was there to lend her shoulder when I cried, maybe that’s why she knew so much about us… but you know what? It turns out; she’s just a b***h like the others. She can one ay be your best friend and the next morning, your worse enemy.
I don’t really remember how it started but a lot has happened. In less than a week, I lost all my “friends”, if they were considered friends… All the Sec 4s (10th graders) used to like me a lot, because I’m a girl who loves everyone the way they are, I like to be with a lot of different people and they find me sweet =).
But, I guess, with the manipulation of Amaya, everyone just went on her side and they all ignored me… All I had left was a small group of people who like to stick together, not with the other gangs and surprisingly, Yukio stood by my side and… I actually had a kick on him. In that small group, I made a best friend, Kameko.
From that moment, Kameko and I became really good friends. We hung out almost everyday together… at school, at home, at her place, etc. We spent so much time together, my mom thought we were dating… like as we were lesbians.
Kameko is a really great person; she’s a punk/goth who got split personalities though… She told me she was a pagan, she believes in black magic, in ghosts, in angels and a lot of other things. She’s a really special which I liked a lot. With her, I changed. I became a darker person, black clothing, black nail polish, much of eyeliner of course, black eye shadow; darker in music (Slipknot rules!), dark in my way of thinking… *sigh* depression.
I think that during that period of time, I “dated” this guy from New-Foundland O.o lol, you gonna say, what the hell?! But he’s actually a sweet guy =) and… it didn’t last long. You know long distance relationships…
There was this time during the exams period… when a really bad thing happened… it was a day after an exam, me and two guys (friends) decided to go take a walk on the Mont-Royal. So after we got out of the metro, we walked up the street which leads to the hill. We climbed it up, stayed there for I think an hour or so then, we decided to watch a movie at one of the guys’ place. As we tried to get down Mont-Royal, we kind of got lost in the cemetery beside the hill; I was so scared even though it was the day with a really pretty weather. So that’s what happened…
*Flashback to Guy 1’s place*
In this flashback, I won’t give names to the guys since they only appear in this…
As we finally arrive to Guy 1’s place, we all sit down on his sofa/couch because we are exhausted from the walking and searching we did under the sun.
Guy 1: Hey, how ‘bout we watch a movie?
Guy 2: No I can’t, I’m going, and you two watch like movie.
So, Guy 2 grabbed all his stuff and goes away. Me and Guy 1 were alone in the house, his parents aren’t home yet, they’re still working. I wasn’t that scared of being alone with him, ‘because I knew he was gay and... Not handsome for a gay.
I sit comfilly (O.o how to spell that) and he puts that movie called “Manhattan”. It was a story about a girl who loves an old discover man. This movie is so old that it’s in black and white! The movie actually didn’t interest me much, I felt my eyelids getting heavier and heavier, but I tried to keep them open and watch the movie.
I think he’s getting tired too ‘cause he’s like borrowing my shoulder and use it as a pillow. I actually find it weird because he wasn’t sleeping, but kind of leaning on me. I look at him and…
Karin: Yes? What are you doing by the way?
He looks at me and smiles. “Nothing”, he says. I look at him, not believing what he just said and try to get away, but he holds me in his arms.
Karin: Let go of me! What do you want?!
His smile just got bigger as he holds me tighter and tighter. I try to get away from his arms, but nothing happens. He pushes me on the couch and I fall on it facing him. Knowing what he’s gonna do, I jump out of the couch. “You think you’re gonna go away like that? I don’t think so…” My heart starts to beat really fast, what should I do?! He gets out the couch and comes to me. Not knowing what to do, I pushed him on the ground and hit him. He’s a skinny, bony guy who is barely taller than me… I continue hitting and he continues to smile…
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