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I'm at a very tough decision here. . . . My girlfriend and I are having a lot of problems right now due to my depression. I am in love with her but I am also not. I have no clue what to do and whatever I do I want to do it right. I really enjoy being with her but theres times when I want to just stay home or when I want to have some alone time. But the thing is every time I tell her iI want to do something alone I get a guilt trip and I'm getting sick of it. She knows what I'm going through and yet she still pushes me. Yesterday I told her I want some time to figure out my depression and she came up with the idea of taking a break. Now me being a relationship counselor at my school, Breaks mean break-up. She asked if I wanted to and I said yes or no. She started thinking that I wont ever talk to her again and that I'm totally breaking up with her. Now her parents are mad at me and shes freaking out on me about something she came up with and that she jumped to conclusions about. Sometimes I think it would have been best to stay single cause then I wouldn't have to deal with the drama and stress.