Upon his death, I was reminded of life's inevitabilities. The sorrow, the pain.. they can all be gone in a moment.
It's something that we often prefer to avoid... an important fact of life that is the hardest to swallow. We try to push this into oblivion hoping it would never come but alas, it can never be helped.
It was the first time in my life that someone close to me has gone. Before I had learned that this has happened, I was actually up in my room, lying in my bed, listening to sad songs. I didn't know why I didn't want to listen to cheerful songs. I didn't know why I woke up at that time which I suppose I wouldn't have done normally. It must be entirely coincidental but I guess I was unconsciously preparing myself for something.
The news was broken into me suddenly. And all I could say back was "Okay..". It could be because I knew that he's already not going well. And he's getting weaker and weaker each day. It took a while before it really sunk into me though and actually, it still hasn't yet...that much.
I actually didn't want to see him 'that' way. I wanted to retain in my mind, the still jolly 'ol him. He used to greet me when I came by his way and all I would do was smile back.
I could imagine the sad faces of my titas, my cousins, my mother, lolo, lola...everyone. And I felt sad. And I wonder how.. he's doing out there. I guess he could be better off. I guess he has already been released from pain and is already in God's care. I am quite comforted with that thought and so with that in mind, I wouldn't cry.
I wanted to say thank you to you, Tito Willy. And I hope you're doin well out there and you have found comfort in God's arms right now.
It's something that we often prefer to avoid... an important fact of life that is the hardest to swallow. We try to push this into oblivion hoping it would never come but alas, it can never be helped.
It was the first time in my life that someone close to me has gone. Before I had learned that this has happened, I was actually up in my room, lying in my bed, listening to sad songs. I didn't know why I didn't want to listen to cheerful songs. I didn't know why I woke up at that time which I suppose I wouldn't have done normally. It must be entirely coincidental but I guess I was unconsciously preparing myself for something.
The news was broken into me suddenly. And all I could say back was "Okay..". It could be because I knew that he's already not going well. And he's getting weaker and weaker each day. It took a while before it really sunk into me though and actually, it still hasn't yet...that much.
I actually didn't want to see him 'that' way. I wanted to retain in my mind, the still jolly 'ol him. He used to greet me when I came by his way and all I would do was smile back.
I could imagine the sad faces of my titas, my cousins, my mother, lolo, lola...everyone. And I felt sad. And I wonder how.. he's doing out there. I guess he could be better off. I guess he has already been released from pain and is already in God's care. I am quite comforted with that thought and so with that in mind, I wouldn't cry.
I wanted to say thank you to you, Tito Willy. And I hope you're doin well out there and you have found comfort in God's arms right now.
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One of the worst things about losing someone is if it doesn't hit you until later. You've already realized that the person is gone, but the full wave of emotion hasn't hit you. Something reminds you of him, and all of the sudden it's high tide.
The ugliest of it all is if it doesn't hit you at all, despite the person.
I hate that the most.