I spent most of the day today with my brother and sister-in-law. since they're taking in my children for me, I helped them with a lot of the preparations, and watching the three children, my two and their daughter Andrea. now Kiera and Liam are there, getting settled in, and I will only see them if I go to town to be with them. that makes me extremely sad, like I've been permanently separated from them. though I guess I will be soon enough. but I love them, with all my heart and it hurts to know that I won't be the one teaching them to talk, I won't be the one singing them back to sleep when they wake up at night, I won't see their first steps, I won't get to send them off to school and worry about them constantly... maybe I should worry about myself a little more too. I keep getting bruises that won't heal, and I've felt quite sick all day. but I don't care much about myself. I'm just so upset about giving my babies up to someone else, even if that someone is my older brother.
Koware-Yasui · Thu Aug 21, 2008 @ 06:40am · 0 Comments |