i love my family, i really do, their all great, but sometimes i feel like im not there. when we're all at the table talking, i get left out adn then my sister has to say something, like just because i have pentgram earing, i worship satan. why, why does she say that. she doesnt understand anything about me. i mean she's my older sister, i look up to her, but then she has to put me down like everyone esle i know. i just wish she would stop. she just like mom and dad, they put me down too. mom alawys says something about my wight. when im in a store trying something on and then i show her, i can see it in her eye's that she thinks im fat. then she has to say "it would look better if you lost 20bl." who says that to their daughter. then my dads not that much better. so i like rainbows, i grow up watching Rainbow Brite, and Care Bears. thats what i think when i see things that are multi colored. he saids things like "now your ready for the gay paried" and "wont ppl think you gay" it hurt, i know he doesnt think so but it does. i just wish they would understand me. i love them, but it doesnt seem like they feel the same way.
ApollaMoon · Sat Sep 17, 2005 @ 01:23am · 0 Comments |