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What do I think about love? Ooooh, I could go on for hours. Love is like trying to understand all the different parts of Irony in a literature class with a teacher so German that you can't understand his accent. I guess in the end, love is such a broad subject, and such a controversial one that people seem to get their own oppinions about it and hope they chose the right ones.

Love at first sight.
I don't believe in it. People talk about when they see someone they just know that they were meant to be together. Yeah, right. Have you ever noticed how people never know that their made for the obscenely obees person, or the kid covered in the red rocky mountains, or that bow-legged four-eyes dork who can't stop wiping his nose? Seems pretty narrow-sighted to me. Love doesn't have tunnel vision, therefore no love at first sight. Still one could say, "Well I fell in love with the fat kid! I knew it from the start!" All I have to say is, if that's true, how perfect is this love. Any love that starts off from the first step never turns out right. Didn't Romeo and Juliet die cuz they took it too fast?

LIKE like love.
"You like him? Do you LIKE like him?" That's right. The crush. I love watching people with crushes. How many times have you heard, "I can't believe I used to like her"? Come on, I'm sure you can tell me one crush which you are so embarassed of. I can name a few for myself. Some people with crushes are just happy looking at the person. Every time they say something other than 'hi' to that person it's like mana from heaven. They keep daydreaming that one day this person will miraculously realize his undying love for this girl he barely knows and come ask them out. Ha! I love it. Though yes, I must admit I did that once. ONCE! One step up from that is the write-that-person-a-letter-then-avoid-them-and-blush-whenever-anyone-sais-their-name-because-you're-too-shy crush. Personally, I think that asking someone out by letter or IM or e-mail is dumb. It's even worse when you break up that way. Then there's the crush where you go so head-strong into it that you scare the other person away. -laughs- Ah, I love people. They keep life interesting.

Friend love
I count myself lucky in friends. I'm not the most popular kid in school because I'm not very talkative. (Of course, reading this you wouldn't know, would you?) I can name two people who really and truly bring out the best in me. Who make me really happy to be alive. I also have a lot of friends I can trust and tell them what's really going on in my life. It feels good to have someone you can count on. Still even with all my good friends, there's only a real handful who I can really say I love. The people who I don't know what I'd do without. It takes a lot for me to say that because I'm not one to really get dependent on people. I don't like opening up to people, because I've had too many people turn away and leave me behind like trash. I'm not complaining, though. I have a lot of great friends and I'm so thankful.

Family love
I've been learning recently that if that kind of love isn't strong it is really hard to have any other kind. They've always said that if kids seem to be struggling it's probably because home life is strained. That is so true. That's all I have to say about that.

Breakups
Are not that bad, people. Sure some hurt like a mother, but I promise you it will be okay. It sadens me so when my friends destroy themselves because someone broke up with them. I know the pain, in a way. I know what it's like to feel like empty trash, but I also know that you have the power to get over it. And if you don't, God does. Breakups can be bad and brutal, but they don't have to be. When you first get into a relationship make sure you really know the person, and talk about what would happen if you were to break up. Talk about being able to forgive each other and stay friends. Dumb, idealistic talk, maybe, but it's possible. And if you break up, don't stay a jerk about it. Get over it and forgive that person or it will just make it that much harder on you. Exception: Some break ups may be because it really isn't healthy to see that person ever again. If so, just avoid that person, don't go out of your way to make their life miserable. Also, don't make your own miserable.

My love life (or lack of).
You may be wondering where am I to be talking so big about love? Truth is, not very far right now. This year one guy has asked me out. I just feel horrible for 'leading him on'. I have yet to meet a guy who I can really get close to now that certain people are gone. It's tough when it seems like you are the only one in a mob of two, as I know all to well. You know who you are. I told the guy that I am waiting on someone and that it would be unfair of me to date them. All true. Also, I don't like them anywhere near that way, but I left that part out. Anyway, for those 'open' like me, it's okay. Sooner or later that special someone will come (or come back).