From all the movies that i have come to see:
Becoming Jane, Pride & Prejudice, The Notebook, The Lake House, Atonment and many more, i've realize why i just adore watching love stories and of course writing them, becasue i also, want to fid love like those in the stories. Many believe that love is impossible to find, because it doesn't exit. LOve does exist! Even if you dont believe in love, you don't believe in love, because you have yet to found it. All anyone wants to be is to be love by someonelse. i know of this, because i also wish to found the one that i actually say i love. i have fell in love, well what i thought was love many times, only wanting to found the one who will give me real love. i always cry on love movies, because even tough they're only acting, but when they've found the one they love or sometimes have to give up the one they love for certain reasons i cry because i wish to onday go through a experience as that as well. To be able to say that i have found that love once and will never forget it or be able to tell my grandchildren or my children that love is real and don't give up on ti. Even as i write i began to wet, to be able to write about such feelings in a book that i to think is to keep my secrets here. i writ them down, becasuse i know i want the person, whoreads this to understand what i feel. At the beginning of this blank book, lyousee that i write over and over again about boys. i don't write, becasue i am fresth, i write to show who i talk to and how at fist i actually thought i was in love or more or less found true love. But as you read, they never end very well. God makes things happen for a reason, like i use to wonder why when we were about to move, that was the last time i was going to see Justin Worley or why Jarell and i broke up i the fist place and when we broke up we where still drawn to each other. Just the other day i bumped into Jarell. I wason the wall talking to an old teacher, when Jarell comes up all close up on me. Who knows why boys act the way they do? Even though i have moved on form Jarell, i still think about him. Love...is confusing. it can be sweet and wonderful of it can ber just pain and misery. as i grow older, i hear stories of how people found love, but in order ot have love, they had to give up somethingelse that they loved. nine times out of then, people alwasy choose the wrong love. regretting. we can't go back in time and change things, because if we could we wounldn' know what's lying ahead in the future, becauwe you keep taking back your mistakes. In able for youi to grow you have to make mistakes. mpst of the time, those mistakes yo make now will help you found your love. As i write the quote at the bottom of this page: SHYNESS IS A CURIOUS THING, BECAUSE, LIKE QUICKSAND, IT CAN STRIKE PEOPLE AT ANY TIME, AND ALSO, LIKE QUICKSAND, IT USUALLY MAKES ITS VICTIMES LOOK DOWN. YEs, what it says is true. People miss out on love, becuse of being shy. i know i have. because i was shy, i wan't able to tell Justin how i felt, when God gave me the chance. and now all i ever wonder is what if. sometimes i would think about him sooo long and hard, that i begin to cry. i cry at how mean he would sometimes be to me and i would cry at the good times we had. my eyes would be bloodshot red!Many times, i've cried myself to sleep thinking about Justin, i know that God will found a way for us to meet again, but i think right now, God wants me to meet other people and worry aobut working on my careers. when i think about the day when i'll see Justin again, i start to wonder what i would probably do. i'll be so excited to see him, who knows may even burst into tears, just because im sooo happy to see him. Who know it might go differently, i might just act shy again. However, i might act and whenver that day may be, i will be ready.
kiyana raine Community Member 
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