I must be a masochist...or however you spell it.
So, to understand this, you'll need some background... I dated a guy recently and he was going to ask me to marry him. Then, for no reason I, or anyone else could see, he dumped me. cry He did it in a scummy way: via text. I, sadly, gave this man my whole heart and he shattered it. burning_eyes I haven't seen him since I returned his effects. He blocked my from myspace and facebook, so I didn't have an option of seeing him.
Yesturday I was on myspace reading a mutual friend's blog when I thought, "I wonder if I can see how he's doing." I know. Stupid thought. But, I went with it and checked his page. I was allowed on. Then, to continue the stupidity, I decided to look at his pictures. I don't think that there could've been a better and more effective way to break me.
I was crying for a good hour after that. cry My heart still aches from it... emo I can't believe I did that! I am so broken now...I don't know if I can be fixed.
~Ally Cat
Pretty Ally Cat · Tue Oct 14, 2008 @ 02:47am · 0 Comments |