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hahahahahaahahahahahahahaha OH MY GOD BRING IT ON DOWN TO PAPA BABY IT'S ALL GOOD IT'S ALL GOOD.....ah ha....'ello, just another day in the life, eh? yeah yesterday sucked balls got into it when whole family, grades and s**t, it really sucked, but all is well now, lately i been in a pretty good mood, the 9 weeks ends next week, and my b-day is in 10 days....i'll be 16...1337, but you know i find myself thinking alot, it's weird, all the time i ask myself why do i bother? y'know? but then i remember that if i didnt no one else would, most of the time i think about my social life, i mean, i don't give a s**t what people think of me, but if everyone is happy, lately it has been so, well, as far as i can tell, but i no one wants to talk to me how can i help them, y'know? it's funny, if you ask me, which you didnt...but oh well, no you know my opinion, heh, but lately my feelings have been getting in the way of stuff, i wish i could just do away with the damn things and let it be over with! but i know where that lands me, heartborken and alone, and that's never fun, sometimes i miss how things used to be and i wonder how different they'd be if i made different decisions in life, but thinking, and wondering what could have been isnt going to change anything, what matters is there here and the now and the time that i have with the people i care about, wholesome or un-wholesome, i just worry alot, i guess. now we get to love...am i in love? i don't know, i though i was before, but it wasnt love, just me trying to convince myself it was when it wasnt, but i guess we learn from mistakes, but does she love me back? who knows? her. well duh. but she'll never say it if she does, guess i have to ride and wait, but eh, most of my life is waiting on borrowed time any way, as is everyones. see. death is inevitable. we all die, every day we live is another day we just die a little bit more, but in that, we find happiness and enjoy life while we still have it, see, without sorrow there is no such thing as happiness, and vise versa, but you have to admit, sorrow isnt fun, but the moment when it leaves almost makes it worth the sorrow....well, i hope you all enjoy my rant.
~The Reaper beckons, a call at the end, Time for me to go~
Atticus Tentei · Sun Oct 02, 2005 @ 01:46am · 1 Comments |
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