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okay so like i broke up with her.......she was hurting me to much....i feel as if my life has turned around...in a bad way tho....all im sure of in life right now is that i need to get over her already....i cant give her up completely tho...i need her friendship at least.....i hate being in the position that im in right now but ohh well...like i said in the last journal when she dumped me i can NEVER hold a relationship.....it really sucks ....cuz really to tell you the truth honestly i dont think ima get over her as fast as she got over me.....my friends keep telling me i will but i dont think they know how much i love her.....she is just so beautiful and she knows everything bout me........ughhhhhhhhhh..........i needa stop....shes not mine and im pretty sure she is just like whatever about me..................she wont even look at me...today when she had a solo in chorus i nearly cried just hearing her......I HATE THIS! I HATE LIFE! ughhhhh.

i dedicate this song to kayla.....

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my whole life has changed.
since you came in, i knew back then.
you WERE that special one.
im so in love, so deep in love.
You made my life complete.
you are so sweet, no one competes.
glad you came into my life.
you blinded me with your love, without you i have no sight.


this song was so true.....you dont even know....it makes me wanna do some things i shouldnt mention...........but i wont cuz i know it would hurt kayla and i hate hurting her....

i mustve been a terrible gf....oh well.....to bad no one will get to have me again.....ii sware im NEVER gonna fall for someone so hard ever again...........i dont think i'l want a gf or a bf for like a year or two.....i need my friends from 9th grade really bad right now.....ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........................ima go now.........

bye..