Tonight is cold and quiet, i see very few stars in the sky but i can smell the smoke from my neighbor. i am having fun with my family..... i want to admire a person's beauty or at least value a person's personality.
I hope i will never gave away my heart to anyone but myself. I want to be a mother who have a iron-will and only show my weakness to husband.
The future is so far away like the stars in the sky. I want to grasp the star but i can never be able to because of our distance. i guess you can call this my desired, i want a person who can hold on to my hand. Kiss my fingers and at least make me smile with just a little warmth, to keep warm in the cold night. He would look into my eye and tell me "You're ugly, when you shiver and try to resist my warmth."
I reply "You mean jerk face. I am not shivering, i have all these fat to keep me warm. It's better than your hand."
He giggle and said " How can you be so cruel to me?"
I will smile in a little " I am not cruel, you call me ugly and i am just saying the same thing back to you."
"Oh i see, i came out in the cold to walk you home safely. Since you don't want me i hope someone on the street will kidnapped you!" He yell. Some people on street look at him as if we was crazy.
"Wait, what!! What are you saying! Geez i didn't mean like that!" i reply.
He look at me and smile beautiful and ask "Don't you think tonight is such a beautiful sight of stars and lights that shine?"
I look around us and reply "In a way. Well we can't stand here all night long....i better getting home."
"....." said He
I stand still and watch him enjoying the freezing night. I want to stand beside him and enjoy his sight but i can't. I waited for him to said something back but he never did and so i turn away without looking back to admire his touch, his beauty and his personality. I regret that very much which cause a puncture in my thoughts and heart forever. I could have just stop and enjoy the view with him along the side walk but i didn't...i just couldn't bring myself to do that.
As i walk a way quietly and crying and thought to myself. I want him to call for me or prevent me from leaving but he didn't even call or try to stop me. I hate him for always letting me do these things..... i walk on slowly like a slug just waiting to get smash or stomp. I kept on walking all the way to Orange ave. and look back but i couldn't see him even if i wanted too. I didn't want him to know anything about me and so i kept a low profile about myself but he told me he liked me.
I hope those word were true, the most saddest thing is i didn't have my glasses to see him from a distance. I hated myself forgetting small thing, i can't see from a distance everything was blurry. I see the street light and people passing me by but why can't i see him from a distance! Stop computer because of you i went blind from a distance and force to wear glasses! I stand there crying for myself and i call myself a "Pitiful fool".
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