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redface there is some points in life when you can simply say sorry a hundred times and it will be okay again. but there are other times,(they happen 24/7 with me) when there is nothing you can do to make the pain or worry go away. there are times when you ******** up and there is nothing you can do to complete fix it. i cant understand why i do this over and over, im either causing pain to myself, or to the ones that mean so much to me. i love jake with all my heart but half the time i KNOW he deserves so much ******** better then me. I feel worthless like no matter what i do i am going to cause pain. but the other days i am so happy to be alive so happy to be with him. SO HAPPY THAT HE IS MINE! i love him and i know he loves me and i love him. and i know he iis reading this so babe I LOVERS YOU heart