Inner most thoughts
I created you in my mind...in doing so I created you in my nightmares.
You haunt my life; my current relationship; my consousness.
Fade away.
[ _~FADE AWAY~_ ]
I layed, painfully but not helplessly upon the ground. Blood all around; the sweet yet bitter color red covered my nightmares. My life; what I'd become; all I remembered of you; wanted it all to...
FADE AWAY
You were my greatist creation. From your jet back hair and translucent blue eyes to your ruthless nature and hunger for power over a frail; girl; me. Even the name I had created for you rolled smoothly off my tounge. My dear boy...so much work went into you. So many late nights stay up to sketch your image and attitude down for remembrance. All of those pictures and documents surround me...I want to burn them all...want them all to...
FADE AWAY
You're running into my present life. I created you to test the hearts of other boys; but never intended you to hurt them. Now that you have done so you must be killed. How do you kill something that exists only in your mind? He's now confined safetly between my ears. How do I get you out? Out of my life; out of my mind...How do I make you...
FADE AWAY
You've hurt him; you've hurt the boy I love. I created you and you took over; you engulfed my life in the very black flame I made to surround you. You've hurt him you b*****d. For that I will not let you get away. One way or the other I will make you...
FADE AWAY
The pain cause to my baby...my dearist baby boy. I cannot let it continue; why did I let it begin? I was unaware; unknowing of how frail your heart was. I am sorry my baby boy. I can make it right...I will make it right. I will make him...
FADE AWAY
Reasured let's grab the knief; I know how to make him gone. Get a gun, grab the pills; one way or another I will kill him. I'll kill him dead so he causes you no more pain. Hold me in your arms with a renewed smile. I will kill the demon I unleashed the day I met you. I will make it...
FADE AWAY
FADE AWAY
Just
FADE AWAY
But I'm stuck again; in a troubled spot. How do you kill what was never living? How do you kill what you created in mere imagination? A thought; a dream...no; a nightmare. How do you kill part of your mind? Could I? Would I? Should I? Yes. I can make it...
FADE AWAY
It's all your fault; you demon of my mind. All you fault you hurt my baby. I will make you dissapear. I will erase you from your very begining. I travel through your made up past; through the world I created for you. That will also...
FADE AWAY
But my eyes grow wide; my heart strikes cold.
I am the begining.
I've created you...it is my fault. I've hurt my baby. Me...it is all my fault. Now I know how to kill a thought. You kill the mind in which it was born. So for you, for your happiness I will make him...
FADE AWAY
An unsteady hand begins to rasie the gun of pure release.
I will kill him for you my baby.
I will end the pain I've caused.
I will make it...
FADE AWAY
So I close my eyes; remember our times together.
And pull the trigger.
With one shot I take two lives; one of which never really held it's first breath.
I take my own,
And the life of Nicolas Scott Zerex,
With one shot; I've killed your pain,
With one shot I've made it all...
made it all just...
FADE AWAY
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