Yeah...another...oh well it may be long or it may not be, oh well so much excite and so many disappointments...I hate being busy but thats what I've been lately weather it looked it or not and plus its brought on a lot of stress so this is whats going down...I have a senior research paper I'm working on....plus I have to quit putting off the american school...pissed cause I might have lost one of the community service papers not only was it one but it was the one with the most hours....sigh...I;m at the point where I can give two shits weather I walk the stage or not I just want to get out of there and trust me though i have friends I'll miss some of the people I THOUGHT I could count on as a friend just are annoying dipshits that I'll be glad to get away from...my plan for going to Arizona after I'm out of high school has gone completely down the drains cause of new plans...in May..one my school time at Joliet ******** west will be over and I'll be most likely missing the last day cause I'll be leaveing Thursday nigh(May 21st) to New York...well more like New Jersey but I'll be going to New York with my friend to go see the one and only Emilie Autumn..I guess its a good idea I got her into her haha umm well we'll be there over the weekend for the concert then exploring New York a bit ^^ but I only have 115 right now and I need 150 not counting spending money but I have till May to get this stuff....spring break in March I'll be working on my room some more..hopefully...meaning a new bed and no carpet and all that glorious crap haha August the most incredible day of my life x3 I'll be 18 and my friend is planning to go to the ren fair and a gothic club then the 29th would be a year for me and my love o.o longest ever...shocked its even going to be 6 months this month xD....well then its off to fall where hopefully I'll be going to JJC for my writers career then after all of JJC I'll be going to a school for all the beauty salon technics(sp) ^^;; this year may be a lovely year but its busy....and here is why I haven't been so happy lately...well for this day actually ok...Friday I had to deal with the damn couples at school since v-day was on saturday...v-day was dull then thats night, may I say i like the fact that i dream more often now but Satuday night I had a dream about sitting down with my ex gf and confessing how I felt about the break and feeling like complete s**t and not only that smoking weed(reminder of her...) then the NEXT aka last night I had a dream about my ex bf and missing him and all that gross s**t....so mainly though I say i've been well sure I mean that but today sucked ******** a** I'm depressed that I'm forced to think of them unwillingly through my dreams...so this is why I think it would be better off if I didn't dream at all...and now I will go to bed and quit complaining about my problems to a journal....good night and hopefully you never have the same problem as me...
Done~ heart
 XxTheLoveCrowxX · Tue Feb 17, 2009 @ 04:24am · 1 Comments |
