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WELL I HAVE A GODSISTER NAMED MISSY SHE'S ONE OF MY BESTFRIENDS ND SHE SEEMS LIKE MY REAL SISTER I MEAN WE HAVE SO MUCH IN COMMON WE ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT WE CAN SHARE OUR DEEPEST SECRETS WITH EACH OTHER AND NOT FEEL LIKE WE ARE BEING JUDGED BUT LATELY SHE SEEMS SO DIFERENT SHE IS LIKE CHANGING I SOMETIMES THINK ITS HER BOYFRIEND THATS CHANGING HER BUT ITS REALLY HER SHE JUST LIKE HAS BEEN TRIPPIN LATELY ND NOT LIKE SHE USUALLY DOES LIKE SHE'S BEEN TRIPPIN ON ME FOR BEING A GOOD SISTER AND LOOKING OUT FOR HER IT'S LIKE I DON'T UNDERSTAND IT ALL I TRY TO DO IS HELP HER ND SHE GETS PISSED AT ME SHE ALWAYS TALKS ABOUT NOBODY CARES ABOUT HER WELL I DO IM ALWAYS THERE FOR HER BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IM NOT THAT IMPORTANT WHEN SHE'S LIKE A BIG PART OF MY WORLD ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT PARTS AND I LOVE HER TO DEATH I NEVER WANT HER TO GET HURT I GIVE MY ALL TO HER ND YET SHE STILL GOES OFF ON ME I DON'T UNDERSTAND IT I MEAN TODAY SHE SAID SOMETHING THAT HURT ME THAT I WOULD NEVER EXPECT HER TO SAY "I MEAN IT'S NOT LIKE UR REALLY RELATED TO ME BY BLOOD OR ANYTHING" ND SHE HAS SAID IT B4 ND LIKE IM REALLY HURT I FEEL WORTHLESS NOW ND SHE'S LIKE SUPPOSED TO BE ONE OF THE PEOPLE I STILL LIVE FOR NOT ONE THAT MAKES ME SEE LEES OF A REASON FOR LIVING MISSY IF YOUR READING THIS THAN U NEED TO KNO U MAY FEEL LIKE THE WORLD IS EXPLODING ON U BUT IM CARING THE WORLD ON MY SHOULDERS WHILE LITTLE PIECES OF MY HEART ARE BING RIPPED OUT *STATUS* ~FEELING SUICIDAL~