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I'm so confuse about this relationship I'm in. He and I are alot alike. We both have be screwed over by ppl we thought cared about us, but to later find out that they really did not. He wants to be closer and i also want to be closer but then when we try he or I push and pull away. He is one of those who keep it inside and won't say nothing until it's all out of control and then it comes out with mood swings or he distances himself for his friends and from me also. I have asked him to talk to someone about his problems, if not me one of his friends but at frist he didn't listen to me and then he says that he is going to get help soon. I'm also the cause of what is happening here, because i'm the kind who hides behind anger. I pretend to be all tough and make it seem like things around me don't affect me anymore. I might not be a good lier to ppl around me, but i am a good lier to myself. I tell myself to forget things and ingore things and i do. But only for a while until it to unbearable that i blow up. I get mad easily, for any lil thing. Or i just stop talking (but thats only in my home). At school i put a front up like i'm all cheery and i really am not. Some of my friends have come to notice that it is only a front and not really me. Another thing that bugs the both of us is that we really don't know who we are. From all the mask we have hidden behind we have forgoten the real us. I have problems with knowing who really am i. I know for a fact i'm not this tough and angry lil girl. I know i am something more clam and weaker. I just can't bring myself to let her out. In this world there is always a reason to hide behind a mask and i use that excuse so i won't show who i am. I'm also a coward because i don't want to get hurt so i hurt others around because i'm such a coward and a selfish human being. It's our nature to protect ourself and not to care who we hurt during that process. He is right when he says humans are the worst thing on this planet. We are. We are. BUT CAN'T WE CHANGE THAT OR ARE WE JUST DOOMED TO BE THIS VIEL CREATURES? Zierra_luv_anime · Sun Mar 29, 2009 @ 04:04am · 0 Comments


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