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I know that I'm supposed to be happy. I mean, I'm married with a little girl. I have great friends, even if they are very few. But I'm not happy. I am going back to college to become a counselor. I want to help teens with their emotional problems. I know I had enough of them when I was a teen. It's just that I'm not happy in my marriage. My husband is a complete video addict and never gives our 9 month old daughter the time of day. I could probably understand if she was a fussy kid, but she is happy-go-lucky and keeps herself entertained. She is the most beautiful little girl with big gray eyes and dark thick hair. I love her so much and I love being a stay at home mom, but my husband wants nothing to do with her. She started saying "dadadada" to my best friend, Cassie. She should be saying that to her father. She has two teeth and one coming in, she stands up on her own, she should be walking any day now...he doesn't even watch the videos of her. Plus, he acts like a two year that got his favorite toy taken away. It sucks. Plus, I promised my mom that I would stop smoking tomorrow and I have to. I know that. It's not healthy. My grandmother died of COPD 7 years ago and my favorite aunt was diagnosed with it a week ago. I'm scared of losing her, too. Smoking is what caused it. So, I'm going to quit. But, its hard.