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its kinda funny....me...when i think before i met mike i had so many probloms >_< and i was alwase scared and i was filled with hate, i didn't know love, caring non of that stuff, but now i do. it was last year was when things changed....well not even last year, it was when i moved to tuson (i think it was 2 years ago) when i moved into that house i knew things were going to be differint (not realy what i felt but i well keep simple, if u want to know the story ask me and i will post it up here). school sucked but i was planing on being a game disiner and or somthing with a computer, i was a A B student back in texas but here it was all Fs, exept for my 1 A in art lol. i had probloms at home, my step mom was a nurse and my dad would get home 3 hours after i got home, now and then the computer would be on so i could email my friends, but this was a rare event, iwould normaly do it in the morning lol but still it was hard. i was not allowed to do much, i sot refuge in my room, there i could do as i pleased. things got worse here in tuson, i had probloms with the kids there and the teachers >_< they lied to me and my dad. i hated it at school and at home crying my friends were little help but they seemed to help....but just a little sad . later that year things got to a point ware the hole house hole just stoped talkign and didn't care no more, my dad stoped looking and talking to me, my step mom was my only friend in that house, i only needed her. the things i went though sucked and i stuck though it, around last summer my dad gave me a choic of going to my mom's or juvie, here were my words "hmmmm, u know what dad those 2 choices sound so good but i would have to go with going to my mom's." right then i went to my room and came out with my stuff and told him i was ready. i moved in with my mom and i felt alot differint, i felt like i could do things for my self, live my life and not caring if my dad said the wrong things. it was spring break when i moved here in with my mom (in pheonix Az) my dad was still living in tuson but he was mving back to texas soon, he told me since i moved here there won't be going back and forth and i said it was ok with me, i didn't want to. as time went on things got SO much better, my first report card came out, it was all As and only one B. my dad thot it was bullshit, and he wanted it mailed, we offerd emailing and he said ok to that. time went on and summer came around, and i met mike, i was bored and just going around hotmail and looking at people and i saw mike and i hada funny feeling "say hi to him" i heard in my head, i heard it like 3 times till i sent an email to him. when i did we talked on msn for hours, i stayed up almost all night talking to him on msn, he was so much fun. when i first met him he was 18, i found a way to meet him. his b-day was coming up and he was going to be 19 so i thot i would have my mom run me over to his house for the first time. when i got out of the car he was happy to see me and i was kinda worried that i made my first mistake. but no, everythign was fun, is b-day was like mine.....anyother day lol. it was me, connie, his gramma, his cosin, and mike. i stayed too long, i was meening to leave his house around 7ish but when i looked at the clock it was 9ish, i called my mom and said i would stay the night. i made a palat on the living room floor, because i wasn't used to sleeping with other people, but mike slept in there with me. him and i stayed up for a little wile and watched tv, then we talked then i tryed to sleep but i couldn't so we talked more lol things just went from there. whent my mom came to pick me up i couldn't stop think about him, it was my first kiss and all that other stuff...it was later when him and i only became better friends. mike's friend jimmmy said we should be dating because we fight like and old married cople and we talk forever. one day when we were talking he asked me out over the computer (not the best but at least he did it)so that made him my 1st bf. my life changed since sharrie left...and i am happy that she hit me and i am happy i did everything i did, because even though mike tells me not to be proud of those things, i think if i never did it they would never have led me here. my life has changed, and i have been taking it forgranted...writing this has helped the stress happening now, this has also helped me remember things, and i have rememberd this that mike told me, " i got a crush on u the first tiem i saw u." i'm not done later when i was in bed wit him i was up set and close to crying and he told me this, "u are the only thing i have good in this world, and i wouldn't cjange a thing." he was holding me then too, i cryed when he said that because i was both upset and happy. and also one more month and i would be his longest bf he had, the others were only there for sex and he told me that i am the first that showed love back insted of just lust. i love him and if i had a chance i would give anything for him.
The Ricky · Mon Nov 21, 2005 @ 03:48am · 0 Comments |
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