I'd say it was around December 15th, 2008 when I started losing myself.
I'd noticed him before. He was just some boy I saw in the halls. Never gave him a second look really.
I had just got myself a new coat. It was green with tan-ish brown fur on the hood. It was really cute and I almost never took it off.
Then some kid brushed by me and said, "Oh, nice jacket..." He kept walking on pretty fast and I hardly realized what he said until I was sitting in my fifth period class and I thought back on it.
That's when I sort of started paying attention to him. I mean, his existence was sot of intriguing. I noticed him out of the corner of my eye, but never said anything.
It wasn't for a while that I thought, "Oh, he's kinda cute." But once I did, it was all down hill from there. He would always smile at me and wave to me and say silly things to me out of the blue.
I spent my entire winter with him on my mind.
I wore my little jacket with the broken broken zipper in the freezing cold thinking of him every day. On the way to school I would listen to my iPod and contemplate my options of what to do with my lovestruck self. What really got me was his loving girlfriend of four years. I would cry and he would unknowingly taunt me with that face of his. His cute lovable face. I was hypnotized.
Every time I saw him and he talked to me I would dwell on it and talk about it for days. He would invite me to visit him at work and I would every single time. If that boy told me to jump off a bridge, I might just do it. He just made me so happy with everything he did.
It's April 19th, 2009 now.
Just the other day I got a text message from my friend Taylor saying that he was at her house. (Her sister is his friend) my friend Justin drove me over from three towns away speeding down the highway like a psychopath.
We get there and in less than a minute of talking to him, Justin is the lead singer of his band.
I went to their band practice the other day and I saw him at work today and I just don't know how to feel... He hugged me and gave me a glowstick.
I almost died with overwhelming pride and joy. That boy nearly kills me.
I have a never-ending playlist of music that makes me think about him.
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