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Today is the day that I can't accept... anything anymore. I'm about to completely leave things alone and not worry about it, but I can't. I've already put too much of myself behind that door, and now that's it's being closed and locked from me, I CAN'T accept it! I'm not ever going to get those pieces of me back, or even be able to open that door again.... I listen to the harsh laughter of the one that has closed it from me, and cry, "HOW CAN THIS BE WHEN I'VE SAID IT SO MANY TIMES AND MEANT IT EVERY TIME THAT I SAID IT?!?!"

Now, people have seen my change, my anger towards the outside world. It's hard to only stand by the door and not open it, but now that door has a barrier from me... I guess there's nothing to do but accept that. I don't care to care about it anymore, but I am upset with myself that I'm upset that the door is closed and locked from me thanks to the one it belongs to now.