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I feel like my heart just hit the floor. I feel like i live a life of lies, like no one wants to tell me the truth. I hate being betrayed so i get paranoid about it. I worry, I fear, I ache and Im about ready to fall down and break forever. Iv been broken so much I dont want to break again. And Im afraid Im gonna, Iv got this awful feelin im being lied to by someone. Who Im not sure. And it hurts. Makes me wish I was still as weak as I use to be. Iv grown up but im still soft. I will keep smilin though. But when no one's lookin I do nothing but cry. After all, how else would I fall asleep?