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So i feel so sad right now. Even though aaron really pisses me off...i still really like him. I may even luv him...which is crazy cuz i shouldnt hav those feelings 4 him right now....but it's how i feel. Anyways i think our little "thing" is over...and its all my fault. Last for the past couple of days i've been really bitchy towards him and he's pretty much tired of it. i told him i was sorry and s**t but he's pissed. i told him to tell me if he didnt wanna talk to me anymore...u kno so that i can get over him..and he was like "idk". That pissed me off and made me sad @ the same time. I jus told him to think abt it then...i guess i'll c wat happens tomorrow then. I jus feel realy heartbroken right now and thatsn not cool. also i really hav to pee but when i went in the bathroom, a spider was by th toilet...and i couldnt kill it cuz i didn't wanna wake ppl up, so i jus went back n my room (which is freezing) and i'm thinking "i really hav to pee". This has not been a gud nite...i suppose i should go to sleep now, and c wat tomorrow brings

So it's been 3 days since i wrote this entry...and aaron still hasnt texted me or nuthin. So starting tuesday and ending yesterday, i've been having wat i call "aaron withdrawls". I mean yea we havent actually been dating, but i'm used to either seeing him or texting him all the time, and now i'm not doing either. It is soo horrible. But one of my friends told me to wait until friday to see if he'll talk to me and if he doesn't, then for me to say sumthin to him like nuthin happened, and c how he reacts. That seems like gud advice to me, so hopefully he doesnt act like a total b***h if i hav to text him.

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Samina Artizarra
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Thu Jun 04, 2009 @ 09:07pm

Aw sorry there was a spider by the toilet, lols. Anywhoser, I understand the feeling of being heart broken and I understand what its like to be unsure on what you are feeling or what you even want. If he says he wants to still talk to you just get everything out in the open, that way you both know how the other feels and then you guys can decide if you want to take it further. I think its kind of cute how he can piss you off and make you happy at the same time, maybe that means something but idk.