I've done a lot of things, around gaia, which I've regretully forgotten about. Even met a few new people I can no longer name. Why do you ask Journal-san? Simple. I literally left gaia for about a year now.
I broke a promise I made, to a very important person, but it was mainly no one but my own fault, as to the whys. Although at first, it could had been explained, since I was very busy in real life. Later, I had time, but I was distracted by other things.
Although I regret...it. I can not take back nor rewind time. I can simply make up for the time which was lost and hopefully get her to play gaiaonline again, so we can hang out toguether again. Frankly, I did miss her. No, I didn't realize this, straight out, when I left.
I realized just how much her online friendship, words and even bit of encourgement meant for me, when I got online and saw her mail. Even after I was gone for a long time, she still bothered and tried to speak to me. (she knows who she is)
I feel like a p***k, a jerk. For having made her, even if it was at a second or more, sad. I know I find it hard, to understand just how emotions can be effected by someone you've never met in real life, because of many reasons but the fact that it happened, bugs me. For that, I once more apologize. I shall try to never let that happen again. The least of my intentions, is for one of my closest online friend, to ever lose hope of talking or hanging around me again.
I'm glad, how she continued to mail me, about her life and I'm also glad how everything's been going well for her. Even if there had been some up and downs. It happens to even the best of us.
Anyways, I just wanted to let this one out. It's been a while, but I'm back and hopefully to stay. It depends, if I can adapt to the current gaia, although I might never play it, for more then 5 hours a day. I do wish to make some time, for gaia, even if it's just 2 hours.
I do intend to stay here and complete my dream avi and be well XD more of a gaian.
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In the last year, I do believe I've changed. If it has been for the better or worse, I will leave it up to you girls (my friends) to judge. Even though I hope, the old me, is still here and it's the same Zaiaku you girls all knew.
