Seems my impatience has gotten the better of me. I've been warned by people left and right, and even with their guidance I'm still impatient.
I move to fast for the normal person, my heart falling open in a matter of days instead of weeks or even months. I know what I want, I know what I seek, and when I find it, I don't see the point in waiting. Of course, not everyone shares my sentiments.
Seems I've messed up royally this time. Found myself collared and was thrilled to have such. Never have I met anyone who was so controlling, so dominant and yet so kind and gentle. I was more harsh on myself then he was, and yet I felt complete and utter devotion towards him. Too much apparently.
I'm dangling by a thread now, crossed a line that's hard to uncross, my fate hanging in the balance. I was encouraged by others to express myself to him, and when I did it was too much, he wasn't ready to hear what I had to say and now I'm stuck. Waiting. Will I be released because I wasn't patient and didn't hold my tongue?
I'll never learn.
 Milain · Wed Jul 15, 2009 @ 07:58pm · 0 Comments |
