So life is confusing right now. I'm a little worried about today, I'm having Ross, Ben, Tim, and Braden all over at the same time. Those of you with a semi intelligent understanding of my life would understand what I have to be a little worried about. I hate myself slightly right now i've made a few mistakes lately. One of them being that I hide my emotions until I can't take it anymore and I go on overload. (I have a feeling thats whats gonna happen today) Secondly being that I've kind of abandoned my real friends, you know the ones that no matter what time or what my problem was they were there for even if I just needed to cry. Yeah I'm really trying to fix that. I love the five of them sooooo much and I guess I didn't relize how much I care about all of them until I felt like I was losing them. So reasons I love my wonderful friends Rj: There really are no words to describe him but he's there no matter what, he trys not to take sides, and even if you just need to sit and cry he'll be there Tim: Tim can always make me smile, he has got the best sense of humor for the most part, when it comes down to it he'll always be there to ask me whats wrong of to just see how I'm doing Braden: Now see this ones hard but I know that no matter how much s**t he gives me and no matter how often he ignores me that when it comes down to the nitty gritty he'll be there, plus we have all our little inside jokes that can always make us both smile Leslie:We have been through soooooooo much and we've still managed to stay friends, she'll always keep my secrets no matter what, and we can make a joke about the most serious stuff and it's okay because were doing it Torey:Torey knows all:not really but thats the way she is and it's great, she'd never ever let me stay out on the streets, shes always there for me, shes stubborn as all hell and sometimes i really need that
There are a thousand more reasons these people mean the world to me but it's not important because really I don't think the rest of the world would understand. I'm gonna do whatever it takes to become closer with my friends again and I'm gonna work on the whole emotions thing but we'll see howwell that works out.
The_Goblin_Queen · Fri Dec 23, 2005 @ 04:42pm · 2 Comments |