Haha, I'm so pathetic. Third entry in one day! Lovely, no?
Ya, well.. I'm bored, sick and paranoid.. So I can't fall asleep. Dandy, no?
Muur. Having issues again. I need to just.. I don't know. Kill it. Yes. That's what needs to be done. -w-; I don't use it, I don't pay attention to it.. why not kill it? I mean, along with it's uselessness all it does is lie. I'm not who it portrays. I am not that person. I have have, and I never will. So.. it dies.
Was working on my Application form a little bit more, thinking how I was going to go about writing these short essay questions.. and I couldn't help but feel a hard TUG. I mean, ya.. I'm going to have a Forensics class available.. an opportunity for a higher edumacation.. and a new start. But.. I will have to leave all my friends. Not completly, but.. still. I won't see them everyday. I will be losing all comfort that I once had. But I guess it's just time to moveon, ya know? Not from the people.. but from the memory. Start anew. And man.. do I need to start fresh. Maybe.. maybe just maybe this will be the one thing that helps me change. Maybe I won't have to kill it? Maybe I can finally glance at it, give me something to look forward to.
I'm sleepy. I think I am just going to suck it up and go to bed. I'm not going to let paranoia keep me from sleep. 3<
Until NEXT time...
