Have you ever been told words..that held meaning in one aspect?
Is it all in the name of protection? Or is it more then it appears..
Secrets....
Motives...
Truth..
Honesty...
Some believe they connect to each other, however, maybe they do..maybe they don't...no one ever knows.. I suppose its hard for me to speak if they are really connected. However..One never really knows...
Thats something I have learned in life. One never knows..anything. A wise man once said "Words are nothing more then shallow souls that dwell..in a sea of deeper meaning."
I'm starting to wonder if they are nothing more..then what their names exhibit. "Words" Words..only have one meaning..however..in "people" terms things are always different. Its one of the things I have learned.
People are afraid..of alot of things...
But...what can come of fear?
There can be no change if someone is afraid to make it.
Maybe...Fear isn't it..though its at the root of everything
I myself...I won't allow fear to hold me back..
Either way I look at it...I don't have much of a choice..but to keep going forward.
So that is what I plan on doing..
Hiding won't help me, I refuse to be so cowardly as to hide or run..I have fait in myself..though.
Thats one of the things that have been helping me..my faith in myself..
I've always done what I felt was what I should without regarding the consequences
And you know what?
Thats something that never seems to change with me...
I always do things the way I do them..
Without care. I just ride things out...
See how long it will last..
Though I won't lie..its amazing I even made it to 18.
Then again..why am I trying to make this into someone ELSE'S JOURNAL????
I'm not someone else!
I'M SAM!
SAM ******** JAMES!
Then again..the more I hear that name Its starting to annoy me more and more.
I wonder alot of things..in life..
I wonder if shallow people ever get the punishment they deserve?
Then again in a world where Bad things always happen to good people...
Thats as common as the circle of life.
I guess I am just getting what I deserve.
I'm not a good person..so at least something is being done right
Hell..I guess I should just shut up and accept..
*Sighs*Either way at least I can...
At least I CAN accept what I am..I won't lie..go ahead call me what I am. A horrible, cold, evil, uncaring person. If thats what I am then fine. Its all I am used to hearing anyway..
No. This isn't something for you to pity me over. If you think that, then go buy a ******** brain.
I have managed to survive for many of years, without pity..without anyone's help.
Trust me, pity is for those who allow themselves to feel selfish emotions..
I have stopped thinking for myself...I did that years..ago...
It makes no difference to me what happens to myself.
I only care about one thing, and that would be my goals.
Other then that..Its all I want to accomplish
Riddely Of The Dead · Thu Jan 26, 2006 @ 05:46am · 2 Comments |