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I feel kind of pressured, what should I do? I tryed talking to my shexi lesbian lover, Sarah about this but it just didnt work very well. He's older then me by more then a year. I pretty much broke his heart not even 3 hours befor his birthday. Omg I'm so stupid. What the hell have I done? I should have never told him. I'm sorry this guy that I'm talking about is Mike. I met him through a friend, Meghan. I used to be unsure of my feelings..I guess I was just afraid if I were to ever fall in love again, my heart wouldnt be returned in a whole piece. I'm not really sure what I was saying. I think I told him that I didnt love him because not only was I unsure of my feelings but because of the loss of a friend. Well now were cool and I've realized I do love him, but why won't I do things with him.. neutral Well I'm confused and I probably will be for awhile. I wish I still thought guys had cooties, it would have been much more easier.