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God, should I really write this? How do I start? I guess I'll start simple by describing what he looks like. He is tall. About Grant's height. And he is the tiniest bit chubby but not really. He has hair one shade lighter than mine. His eyes are a pretty light brownish-green. His hair is like 1/2 an inch shorter than mine. He has an odd smile. He doesn't smile much. When he does smile, it is whenever I talk about likin him or when I am near him or Jessica says he smiles when she mentions me. Wait...who is reading this? I don't care who reads it, but be sure to comment on what you think of it and to say who you are (real name). But back to Bailey. His real name is Aaron Bailey Wilson. He is one year older than me, but in my grade. He goes to White House Heritage, but lives in Springfeild. I'm trying to convince him to go to Springfeild High so we are in the same school. He is Atheist, but I don't care that much. OK, so enough description. I met him in like 1st grade and we have always been really good friends. I have liked him since the third grade, loved him in 6th, and didn't relise how much I loved him until I moved to Coopertown in 7th. I called him one day saying I had to tell him something but I didn't want to. I told him I loved him. My exact words were "I think I might be in love with you." I was crying, which I don't do very often. He didn't know how to react. He said he was confused, but he does like me too. I'm not sure if he meant it or not. But time passed and I didn't talk about loving him much..that is..to him. I talked to Jessica about him all the time. She delivered messages to him, asked him questions, let me borrow her phone to talk to him for three hours stright, and invited him to her birthday party just so I could see him. Then, about a month ago, I finially asked him out. I regret it. He said in quotes "Since we never see each other, how about just friends with benefits?" I was devastated. I still haven't talked to him. What do I do? Do I talk to him or not?