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Natasha~ says:
4 and a half years of this bullshit, i'm tired of working for stupid s**t that means nothing when i walk away from my computer.
the computer is my whole life.
i'm sick of it
i'm never gonna get my hacked items back.
i'm never gonna reach my goals.
there's no point, it's all a wasted effort.
&i'm sick of getting so, so close.
then getting my hopes shot down.
more than that, i'm sick of pouring my heart out to people i hardly know on the internet.
it only winds up hurting me worse in the end.
because i need a good friend.
but none of them are materialistically here. (if that's even a word)
&it hurts me.
anon. says:
ouch hun
that's strong
but even though you say that
it's like that for all of us
Gaia is a neccesity
Natasha~ says:
That's not true.
most of the people i know on gaia actually have lives.
i don't,
anon. says:
nor do I
Natasha~ says:
i'm currently working on getting my fiance back while creep-os on the internet are asking me for noods.
i just want my life on track
i need to get my priorites straight
i miss my man. i want him back.
then maybe i'll have time for gaia
but
even then
it's all wasted effort
when i know i'm never going to have any of it
because i lost everything yesterday &today combined.
everything
&there's no getting it back
i'm sick of my luck being shot to s**t
while there are so many rich as ******** people in the casinos who don't give a flying ******** about the low ballers.
i have always done everything i could to help people reach their dreams
i gave a friend my horns of the demon. i don't regret it, but she sure took me for granted afterwards.
i would never treat someone like that. especially right after they gave me my dream. what i had been questing for years. that b***h.
not only that.
but.
all i've gotten in return for being a good friend was being hacked 3 times, framed for a hacking i didn't commit, and an account banned for "scamming". >_>
WHAT THE HELL DID I DO?!
i get called named behind my back
I'm not a bad person
i'm open minded, i'm generous, i'm a reliable friend.
what do i get in return?
******** s**t.
sorry i ranted.
i really needed that, though.
anon. says:
that's okay o.o
least i can say i have a very similar experience to you
though yous has to be quite the highkight
Natasha~ says:
i just miss the days in '06 when people were friendly.
now everyone who owns a valuable item or two (with a few exceptions) is a d**k. >_>