If Only For A Better Yesterday My girlfriend, or supposed girlfriend, stopped talking to me a while ago. I don't know what to think about that other than that I was used. I was played with like a damn toy and put back in the toy box when she was done with me. It's that kind of bullshit that makes me want to blow up the ******** world. But what caused this? Did she find out I was bi? That can't be it because she and i both have a bi-sexual friend. Maybe it's because i'm a bi boy, that always weirds people out more than a bi girl. It's bullshit, Nominomicon. But that isn't even the weirdest part.
She has an ex boyfriend that I was friends with for a while before I graduated, He's name was Austin. That was about earlier this year i guess, before the summer started. I do admit he was kinda cute and I had something of a crush on him. I kept it a secret for the most part. We joked about me being gay all the time but I never actually said I was gay. Oh crual irony. I'm was going out with a girl i only wanted to be friends with and i was friends with a guy i wanted to be going out with. Now neither of them will talk to me. If it's because of my sexuality then ******** both. But I still want to atleast be friends with those bastards. What do you think I should do, Nominomicon? Besides killing and maiming as your usual answer. I'm really hurt now and i'm off my meds so i don't have a crutch to lean onto.
Days ago I sent the b***h an email expositing that I wanted to still be friends and that I was a little peeved to be ignored. I don't understand girls. Atleast I still got my other friends...who...i've been.....ignoring. Whatever, i don't care. Maybe things will work there way out on their own. Or am i being a complete moron for thinking that? Well ******** you too than you stupid journal! I'll rip out your pages and wipe my a** with'em!
Love, Jake
Jake-Braintree · Tue Sep 21, 2010 @ 05:43pm · 0 Comments |