Wow, well.. I've done some growing since the last journal entry.. It's so strange.. I look back and read and think to myself... What was really going on while I was writing this.., It's all sugar coated, every word. Even what seemed to be the worst phrase was plated in sugar. Oh well, so much has changed since then.. why am I writing this now and here? well simple, My life is a story, and so is yours, Why I chose here, well I still don't know. >: / heart
This week has been quite the week, after a semester of much homework from my courses and is not quite over yet.and well.. I must say, I cant friggin wait till this week is over.. and it will be over oh so soon. Just yesterday night was one of the weirdest nights for me. I couldn't handle being at home, my brother was around and I felt so uncomfortable to allow myself to get any work done. I thought to myself.. where could I go, I wish I had somewhere to go, or a friend to call to do some study time with, but I couldn't think of anyone, the thought kept creeping, Is this bad for me to not have anyone for that purpose or am I just making the excuse.. well.. I spoke to Adrian and he was down to help me out by going to my grandparents condo for the night to get some work done.. the night turned out completely different.. Instead, a friend of ours joined us, and It led me to drift off to the memories implanted in the walls of the place.. The interior had me drowning in past thoughts.. and I thought to myself.. maybe I really should live in here, the place needs a re-arrangement, and maybe an artistic Juli arrangement at that.. I had been searching the past week for a place to live, when the dirty gold is sitting right in front of me.. I must clean it, there are spirits that need to be erased, and though I'm just a little scared.. I know I can do this, but I know, I must be strong. I feel the battle is going to be hard, but I wont let the past memoirs feed against me. :] I'm going to upgrade that place, give it some Sugar Spunk and create new aura..
wish me luck.
until next time, CIAO! heart
love - Juli Ann
RawSugar_88 · Wed Dec 08, 2010 @ 04:50am · 0 Comments |