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I know I said I'll leave the blade
and learn to deal a different way.
But I still cant calm my sorrow
unless i bleed it all away.

I had to put away my knife
and let my wounds turn into scars
I tried to find my own way out
on a night that had no stars.

I tried to fight this all alone
to let all my old scars fade.
But i find myself once more
picking up this rusted blade.

I'm sorry that i let you down
that to your face i lied.
But i just cant bear the pain
its tearing me apart inside.

Here I sit, blood dripping down,
my weakened hands still write.
Tears wash away the crimson ink
as the pain i try to fight.

I cant stop saying that I'm sorry,
sorry if you're hurting too.
I just don't want to deal with things,
every thing I'm going through.

Tired of hearing all these lies
that keep shredding up my heart.
I cant choose between the things
that have torn my soul apart.

I cant keep hiding from the truth
cant keep hiding behind these eyes
these eyes that mimic happiness
that not even I can recognize.

I cant figure out the reasons,
theres not much here to explain.
No matter how much i hate this blade
it seems to ease my inner pain.

Everything they all have done
the pain i live inside each day.
theres nothing else that i can do
I'll just bleed it all away.