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I started to feel something today... that I haven't felt in so long. The feeling of being unwanted by any male. My appearens to me does not please me.. I kept thinking in my head today what I was missing... " I have kindness, I am caring, I have a talent, I can be a very confident helping person. But what the hell am I missing... What do I not have that a guy is looking for.." Then it all came to me, as I was thinking this I looked in the mirror and saw....a troll.. a girl with no sex appeal, commapred to every girl I ever laid my eyes on, they all had sex appeals, but yet some lack kindness unlike me. So then I all came to me that a s**t tone of guys this days.. don't seem to care if a girl is confident about her self, or if she's sweet and kind and talented with her art.. They mostly would look for a girl... with a pretty face... I looked at myself and though, "I am not pretty, I don't feel pretty, I don't like how I look, I want to change my look, I want to look pretty like other girls and not look like a very old ugly 100 year old doll that has never ever been touched in thoughts 100 years. Completely forgotten by her/ his owner... I am tired of looking like this, I am tired of being alone, I am tired of feel like s**t when I see other females and seeing how pretty they are. I want to be an equal, I want to have a boyfriend, and not be alone, I want to feel wanted by many, instead of in the conner all my ******** life. I want someone to show they really really care for me.. I want... to be notes, I want.. to be loved.......
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