1. Fear: Loosing her Forever
I found her and tried to stay close
until i realized she was taken
but that it stood on very shakey ground
i thought i had time
but it seems time has escaped me
time brought a trickle of water between us
but time is unforgiveing
and that trickle became a river
but that river didnt stay a river, it grew and grew into a lake
i try to build up walls to shield my feelings from preying eyes
but it seems i cant keep them up for very long before they break down
and i cant hold my feelings in anymore
i have let go of her physicaly
but my memories of her are as vibrant as ever
i cant let go of the times we had
but that lake has become an ocean
and our two lands, i fear, will never meet again
and all i pray is that i can admire her from a far
because that ocean will someday push her over the horisen
and i will have lost her forever
though it seems as though my fear has come true
and i have already lost her
and nothing can be done to stop her from drifting away
2. I will nolonger be myself
from watching her from afar
i see her happiness
and it seems to translate into happiness for myself
i see her smile
and i smile
i see her laugh
and i laugh on the inside
to keep preying eyes away
i can not explain it
it just happens
yet there is another feeling that fights for control
other than my yerning for her
is this other feeling that fights that one
a small voice in the back of my mind
it says that, seeing her happy like this
even though it makes me happy
it seems that she has moved on
and doesnt need anything else
to keep her happy
and that, if i were to be in her life
i would just make it more complicated
and to see her in any way sad or upset
would make me feel terrible because i caused it
so these to feelings
my yerning for her
and my voice of doubt about being with her
fight a never ending battle that will rage on and on
with no winner
for breif moments, one will win
and that feeling will over come me
but within a few moments the other will get back up
and fight again
no clear winner
no clear feeling
no clear anything
and what i fear is that these feelings will never go away
and when i can no longer admire her from a far
i will not stay sain for very long
and my feelings will no longer be satisfied
because there is no sight of her to stop the fighting
and the fighting will rip me apart inside
and i will no longer be myself
3. A Hopeless Cause
i think of the times we had
and i think of the laughter we shared
then i think of all my wonderful friends
who try to help me in my plight
i thank everyone of you for trying
then i think of how she hates me so...
and i think to myself...
it seems so much...
like a hopeless cause
for i yern for the unatainable
and wish for something that cannot be granted
then i think to myself
there is nothing i can do to change the facts
and dispite all my friends efforts
they all are in vein
and nothing can be done
and now that i reflect on all of this...
my wishes
my yernings
how she hates me
the times we had that are now gone, never to return
my friends, and how they have tried to help me
i see now that all that has been done to help make my wish come true
has gone wowards a hopeless cause
the ocean berween us will not stop growing
and i dare not take my eyes off of you to build a boat
for i fear i may loose the way to find you
and i will sail across the ocean evermore
to find your island that time has made
so you see..
all my and my friends efforts seem to go towards a hopless cause
because time flows in none but one way
forward
and there isnt a power to change that
so all my efforts are for
a hopeless cause
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