Of course they would get to you before I could. Of course they would make me lose another friend over this. Of course I have to ******** everything up again.
Yeah, I made a mistake. I've made many mistakes. I was stupid, and I've paid for it ten-fold. I'm paying for every person that I've hurt over this entire time.
Not that you believe me. Not that you'll ever believe me. Not that anyone will. I can tell you or anyone that I'm changing, and it won't make a difference. I know I am. I know I'm not that guy anymore. I know that I'm going to turn out better than I have been, that I'm going to become the better person that I want to be; that I have to be. Whether you decide to believe it or not is up to you, and it seems you've made up your mind.
I told you you could trust me now before, and I certainly meant it then. I haven't done anything that would betray that otherwise, except not bring up this matter before hand like I should have. Call me all the names you want, think of me what you will, I know what I did was scummy, low, indecent, stupid, whatever, and I'm sorry that I did it and that I hurt you and everyone else. I never want to do that again, ever.
I'm going to do all I can to earn your trust back, to earn everyone's trust back, and to be honest, I don't expect to get it back from anyone, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to try my hardest.
I HAVE changed, believe it or not, it's true. You'll see, you'll all see.
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