I hath been gone for a bit in attempts to regain myself, though I still feel I am lacking and less of whom I once was. I art especially displeased at HIS lack of reply towards our mailing that began after I posted Dido lyrics on his profile to display my feelings which I canst nay deny or ignore.
I very much wish I couldst nay hate that one he chose, the one whom no doubt demanded such a commitment uncaring of how it would effect others. It didn't bother me when I knew he was with others beside myself, so long as he cared for me and looked only at me when I was there. Now that selfish b***h has forbidden any other to touch him or be with him as they feel.
I spoke with the Priest who also contains such deep feelings for that man though instead of fighting he struggles inwardly, trying to remain a friend and support for them both while suffering silently. I couldst nay do this, I am nay one whom could remain silent for such a personal situation, I loved him and I tried fighting for him, I still would but I hath lost the will as he hath no desire to be near me anymore.
It seems I am dead to him and he only angers that I blame him for it, which I doth nay do, I blame myself also, though it was obvious my feelings were stronger for him to agree to commit himself to that thing.
Sir William I wish thee luck with thy future struggles beside Tugger, thou art very brave to remain a friend to him even as thou heart breaks watching him be with RyuAiko, I admire thee, thou hath more strength than I. Humans art nay as weak as we hath fought, perhaps tis us whom are more weak to the emotions we weren't meant to experience on the same level as the humans.
Elijah
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Written emotions and confessions of a messenger and servant of God, words not dare spoketh aloud to another.
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- The one you loathe is a special person to say the least. It requires care to even have his friendship, let alone trust. It's no surprise he forbids his significant other any contact with others; 'specially if those others have interest.
Why do you feel those emotions so strongly? 'tis because you were not designed to feel them in the first place. 'Tis both a punishment and a blessing for you, Near Fallen One.