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ow my eyeballs are burning! Too much time on the computer tonight! Hmmm...tomorrow is my brother's b-day, he'll turning 12, go him. But he has to stop growing or else he'll be the tallest person in my entire extended family!!! eek
I've been thinking too much lately, the topics usually being, what I have to get done, guys, random observations, what my major should be in university, memories, etc...
I have a wishlist a mile long, it only keeps growing and I can't stop thinking about everything! But I have most of the cheap stuff so of course my wishlist is all expensive stuff that I cannot afford. I can afford some of it after I save up money from working, but not all. Sigh...
Went to my cousin's house today for an easter celebration, it was ok, we played street hockey like we always do. (My cousin's are all male and all crazy.)
I've noticed that lately I'm becoming uncomfortable in most places I go and with most people. I don't feel normal or relaxed, only with very few people and definitely not in my own house. Consider yourself lucky if you are one of the few I can relax around but I won't name who you are in fear of excluding any aquaintances.
Porcupine tree is an interesting band, check them out! I recommend the song lazarus.
School is over, but the stress still lingers. Sigh.....make it go away.....I really need to have some fun.
I dunno, something happened to me this year, its internal, I can feel it. My optimism has certainly decreased and my energeticness. So I'm hoping that something will fix this, either sleep, or relaxation, or having fun every day, or summer weather, there are many things that I'm sure would help. Like I keep saying to everyone, this year kinda killed my soul. And it's only partially because I switched to university. There have been other things. I feel like I certainly have a lot to worry about, its a bit overwhelming, yes, but what can you do?
I hope people don't feel too concerned from reading this, this year has been probably the worst year, at least it feels that way. So I'm sure things will be better now that I'm off. We will see, and I'll continue to try and keep an open mind and not to think too much. 3nodding
myuubee · Sat Apr 15, 2006 @ 07:24am · 2 Comments |
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