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I'm so sick of like everything that is life.
I know I complain way too much about how shitty the world is.
But like everything I complain about is so true in most people's lives.
I'm so sick of Wes hating me.
I really care.
But then I don't.
I don't want him to die from leukemia.
It made me cry.
He doesn't seem to care that even though he hates me, I still care enough to want to do anything to make him feel atleast a little bit better.
He's an a**.
Even though he said he wouldn't ever be an a** to me.
He lied.
Just like everyone else.
I'm so sick of Chris asking me if I hate him or if I'm still mad at him.
RAWR.
If I'm not then he'll know.
If I am he'll know.
I wish he would leave me the hell alone.
I kinda hope him and Jenni will hurry up and break up.
I'm already completly sick of the thought of them.
Maybe that's just the jealousy.
I don't know.
I lied to Jenni.
Well I think I did.
I told her that if Chris made her happy, then I would be happy for them.
Even if I really like him.
I just typed that I cannot stand them being together.
Is that lying?
Maybe it's just being two-faced.
But I'm not saying this to anyone else.
Well whoever reads this...but no one knows Jenni besides Dinky.
I really need to talk to Chewie.
He's like my new best friend/therapist.
He says I need proffesional help.
I don't know if I should take that in a bad or good way.
Oh well.
I didn't go to school today.
YAY.
I'm sad though.
I had lunch with Derian.
I won't have lunch with him again until Monday.
He texted me and said everyone missed me.
I think he lied.
He and Amelia are about the only ones who missed me.
He said he loves me.
I wish it were true.
Well I think he loves me as a bestest friend.
Which we are.
But I really like him...more than a friend.
That sucks.
Ok well I'm done ranting about stupid crap
peace out homies