So my old house is being condemed and the land sold off to pay my fathers debts. My lawyer says that it should cover it all, but there won't be much to spare, and that it still goes into my fathers account. She suggested I go over and take what I want before the distroy the building. I feel weird about going back, like that place never exisited, a figment of my imagination. The last time I was in there the cops had broken the door open and came in with guns drawn, that's my strongest memory of the place right now.
However there are pots and pans and such there that I could use, plus extra sheets and such. I'm going to explore the attic and see if my old car seat is still up there. I'd say my father sold it though.
Its hard to ever believe what I went through was real. I'm starting counciling soon (request of my social worker), so these feelings won't stay repressed, but I'll enjoy it in the mean time.
The apartment is starting to look... interesting. I haven't bought paint yet, but I've got the walls repaired, and the dirty carpet taken up in the living room. I'm going to try and clean the carpet in what will be the baby's room since I'd like to keep it there. I haven't decided what will go down in the living room yet, but the babies' paternal grandmother has offered to help with the cost of the renovations. So that she doesn't think I'm just taking her money, I'll let her help pick out a border of the babies room since I don't know whats in with the babies these days (Like a baby will care).
She came to talk to after school while my lawyer was here. I think she has new respect for me, because she talked to me like an equal after he left. I think I like her, even if her spawn in an a**. I told her that I did not want her son around my children, and she gave a sad sigh and said that she doubted that would be a problem. She has agreed to baby sit my children for me while I'm finishing school, and I said she'll be my pseudo-mother if I have any questions. I think she always wanted a daughter, but her husband didn't want any more kids past a son, so she's in 7th heaven right now.
So I'll let you know how the house adventure goes, and I also have another doctors apointment coming up biggrin
TheOneAndOnlyAlex · Fri May 26, 2006 @ 04:21pm · 0 Comments |