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Holy s**t. If I thought School + Being pregnant was hard, School + Babies is INSANE. I don't know what I'd do with out their grandmother, near the end she was all that held me together.
Natural birth, no painkillers (almost had to kick someone about that one, they tried to sneak it in!!!). Labour was long but I don't even remember most of it. I was almost two weeks early but that's normal with twins.
My girls are doing so great. I'm loving being a mom even if it's DRIVING ME UP THE WALL.
Well, just an update incase anyone even notices me here anymore. I really don't have time for Gaia, but I wanted to stop in to see what the Christmas event is now that the girls are sleeping. Santa was good to them smile
TheOneAndOnlyAlex · Mon Dec 25, 2006 @ 05:55am · 1 Comments |
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Figured I'd let you all know I was alive! I've made a friend at my birthing class! The first "real" friend other than my best friend. I'd say we go out for coffee together but neither of us are allowed to have it rofl We go to the coffee shop and drink juice. She's a fair bit older than me, and having her second, but she's been like a cool aunt to me smile
The house is ALMOST done. The hard stuff is anyway and I'm trying my hand at sewing eek Nana says I should try knitting but I'll leave that to her.
Aaaand, I may have met a boy redface
TheOneAndOnlyAlex · Wed Aug 09, 2006 @ 11:32pm · 2 Comments |
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Wow, I finished the babies' room today, it looks amazing! Nana came in and helped me clean the carpet, it took almost two hours but the carpet looks good as new! The walls are a sunny yellow and I have some Pooh decals around the place. Nana wanted to put a boarder up but I decided that that would be too hard to take down when they got older. We have two cribs in there, but from what I've read its better to have them in the same crib when they're smaller because they'll fuss less.
The kitchen is done too, although I only had some touch ups to do on the pain there, but the floor has been totally cleaned. It's all shiny and clean! Next is the living room!
The babies love to move now. I guess its starting to get crowded in there too! Not sure when my next ultrasound is, but everything feels like its going great biggrin
TheOneAndOnlyAlex · Sat Jun 17, 2006 @ 07:55pm · 0 Comments |
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My check up is tomorrow, and my second ultrasound. From what I've been readying they should be able to find the sex of the babies. I have new flooring down in the living room but I need a rug or something for the babies. I'm wondering about keeping the babies room carpet since it can be hard to clean.
I didn't get much from my old house, just some pots and pans. My babies' paternal grandmother (who from now on will be refered to as Nana as per her request) brought me shoping yesterday and I have baby stuff! I also have some nice maternaty clothes. I don't feel right taking too much from her but its nice to know that I won't have to worry about the twins wanting for anything material either.
Anyway, not much else!
/Edit Identical Twin Girls!
TheOneAndOnlyAlex · Mon Jun 05, 2006 @ 04:43am · 0 Comments |
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Broke into the old apartment |
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So my old house is being condemed and the land sold off to pay my fathers debts. My lawyer says that it should cover it all, but there won't be much to spare, and that it still goes into my fathers account. She suggested I go over and take what I want before the distroy the building. I feel weird about going back, like that place never exisited, a figment of my imagination. The last time I was in there the cops had broken the door open and came in with guns drawn, that's my strongest memory of the place right now.
However there are pots and pans and such there that I could use, plus extra sheets and such. I'm going to explore the attic and see if my old car seat is still up there. I'd say my father sold it though.
Its hard to ever believe what I went through was real. I'm starting counciling soon (request of my social worker), so these feelings won't stay repressed, but I'll enjoy it in the mean time.
The apartment is starting to look... interesting. I haven't bought paint yet, but I've got the walls repaired, and the dirty carpet taken up in the living room. I'm going to try and clean the carpet in what will be the baby's room since I'd like to keep it there. I haven't decided what will go down in the living room yet, but the babies' paternal grandmother has offered to help with the cost of the renovations. So that she doesn't think I'm just taking her money, I'll let her help pick out a border of the babies room since I don't know whats in with the babies these days (Like a baby will care).
She came to talk to after school while my lawyer was here. I think she has new respect for me, because she talked to me like an equal after he left. I think I like her, even if her spawn in an a**. I told her that I did not want her son around my children, and she gave a sad sigh and said that she doubted that would be a problem. She has agreed to baby sit my children for me while I'm finishing school, and I said she'll be my pseudo-mother if I have any questions. I think she always wanted a daughter, but her husband didn't want any more kids past a son, so she's in 7th heaven right now.
So I'll let you know how the house adventure goes, and I also have another doctors apointment coming up biggrin
TheOneAndOnlyAlex · Fri May 26, 2006 @ 04:21pm · 0 Comments |
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Yea, getting pregnant wasn't smart. Obviously I didn't want to get knocked up, but s**t happens. These babies have been the best thing that happened to me and they aren't even born yet. I'm turning my life around and I *will* do right by them.
So why all the hate? I've been in a group home, that place was HELL. How is that better than being in a fatherless home? They will be loved beyond imagination. I'm a fighter, anyone who knows me knows that. I've survived much worse than a couple of screaming babies who need me (screaming father who beats me?).
Anyway, thanks everyone who stand up for me. I can take a lot, but I get to a certain point where I just want to cry. It feels like the world is against me...
TheOneAndOnlyAlex · Wed May 24, 2006 @ 01:56am · 0 Comments |
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A time to build up, a time to break down |
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I love that song, I have it blasting in my apartment now.
I've always wondered if it was a generational thing that moms always seemed to listen to softer music, or if its a mom thing. I think it's a mom thing now, since my music tastes have changed in the last few weeks. I need to start collecting kids music too.
I know being a teen mom is inviting more problems, but HONEST TO GOD can't a girl catch a break? I'm having to take a restraining order out on my father, which is causing me grief for some reason, and now that I'm showing I'm getting no end of idiot comments from people. "Guess you shoulda kept your legs shut" No s**t! What kind of stupid comment is that to make when I'm almost half way through my pregnancy!... Wow I'm almost half way through my pregnancy...
I've started feeling the babies move, which is... wow. You cannot imagine this feeling, nor can you really describe it. Every time I feel it I want to tell everyone around me!
TheOneAndOnlyAlex · Sun May 21, 2006 @ 10:21pm · 1 Comments |
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We see our heroin at the edge of the abyss |
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So, as you can tell I'm pregnant. It was a dumb, I won't even say mistake, choice is better, that got me here. The father is evil and wants nothing to do with my babies which is fine with me. His mother on the other hand... I'm up in the air about that.
My father will be in jail a long time on kidnapping, abuse, and drug charges. Kidnapping? Yea that was locking me in the house for a week and not letting me go to school or see a doctor after he found out I was pregnant. Abuse? That was for all that he did to me from the age of 2 (when my "mother" dropped me at his door and ran) till the cops finally got involved. He put me in ICU once and I was in a group home for a little while. The group home was so bad that I said I made everything up and begged to go back to dad. The drugs? The idiot was dealing E to kids when he was picked up for the other charges.
So I'm in a crappy basement apartment. I'm allowed to do what I want to it tho painting and such, so I'm trying to get new flooring and stuff down. I don't know if I'm allowed to paint or such, so I'll have to ask my doc.
TheOneAndOnlyAlex · Wed May 17, 2006 @ 03:27pm · 1 Comments |
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