heart Well another day another problem! This is where I confess it all! It seems that I haven't been writing in here for a minute and good thing I decided to today. I think I'm in love wit someone but s**t i really don't kno wat love is. I cant erase the fact that maybe he wasn't even in love with me. He tells me he is but I jsut dont kno. Its so strange, because it feels like no one loves me yeah of course God but it that the only one? I heard that everynight before you go to bed there is someone out there thinking about you and loving you that you dont kno. I tell everyone this but I can never tell myself. My former ex, the one I think I love, I think still loves me, but its so hard. I must not get it. I should just move on. The biggest scandal occured after I broke up with my ex also. I dont care who knos, I feel stupid. Ok one of my friends had a crush one my ex for the longest and I didn't kno until when I was talking to my ex( ya kno like tryin to go wit him and s**t). Well anyways one day she told my she kissed him three times. I was so heartbroken I aint kno what to do. But I kept my cool untill I couldn't no mo. I told my bestfriend and my ex found out. I think he felt bad. But then my friend, the one that kissed him said that I shouldnt be worried because I dont go with him yet I told her that I still liked him. It was so strange and I still have a hard time getting over it. And people still tell me that he still loves me but I dont kno still! We still talk and he knows I still like him and he still likes me I think but we dont go together we're more like ******** or friends with benefits. haha funny. I even asked him to go with my friend ( the one that kissed him) he said no of course even though I wish he would so I could over him and she could got over her boyfriend. Its strange because also that same friend tells me that my ex still has a girlfriend. oh well he aint tell me so its whatever.Besides that not what my 2nd best friend ( his sister not literally) didnt tell me that and he tells her everything. But kno this, I got this b***h, believe me. How can I be fake now? I've now realized that the b***h is a backstabber yet I'm laid back and calm. Keepin my cool, I'm still her friend. I can't do s**t else! As a matter of fact I want ya'll opinion. Wat u think I should do? And by the way I left out a part, she even lied saying that she kissed him 3 times. She only kissed him once she told me. I kno she still kissed him but still y the ******** she need ta lie about something like that. Plz excuse my French! There's more confessions here to come but from now on plz S.M.S (Save my Soul) heart
BabyCeeCee08 · Mon May 29, 2006 @ 06:51pm · 1 Comments |