well, i would like to be happy right now and say somthing like "oh the world is wonderful right now" but its not. b/c well... (just so everyone knowes, im about to ramble on about something and if you dont not want to know my problems then just stop reading right here) last night i was talking to my friend on the phone and we started to get into a deep conversation about, how whenever i talk to her i always come acros very rude and i asked her y that never pothers her. y am i still her friend. she told me that i wast rude but i am. i no i am.. whenever i talk to her i always say somthing that is very mean but she is ok with it. well, i get mood swings and i started to cry cuz she is such a good friend and i dont deserve some one so kind to be my frined. i just dont get it. and then out of no where, my parents charg ein thinking that SHE was the resone for me crying. they thought that i was crying cuz of her! WTF! Y WOULD SHE MAKE MY CRY!!!! so then i hang up the phone and they start to ask me y i was crying, and i told them. they didnt no y i felt that way and then we started to talk about my frined and how, she can dig to deaply into peoples head trying to find a problem that may not be there and then creates something for them to fix... SHE WOULD NEVER DO THAT! but b/c thay think that, they are only alowing 15 min. on the phone with her so that we dont get into conversations like that. ever... well, um... THAT WHAT FRIENDS TALK ABOUT! THERE PROBLEMS! ITS NOT LIKE IM GOING TO GO TO YOU FOR HELP! not for somthing like this!!! you have friends so that you can talk about things that you cant tell others about. THAT what a friend is for. cuz when you tell them, they are there to make you feel better! but w/e... well, anyhoo, then they start to rambol on and on about how rammstein is a bad influence and that i can do anything that deals with them. so... my xanga is goooooooooon. i would be writing this on that but i dont have it anymore... i had to get rid of it. and i had to do it in frunt of them so there was no way around it. i hate my space so i wont go there to post this... so thats y its here. no other place to put it. and im not jus tgoing to keep this loked up in my head b/c it makes people feel better when they tell the whole world yet no one will read it. that is a good feeling. and if someone does read it, they will just make you feel better... unless your a total a** hole... but i ask if you have nothing nice to say, pleeeeeeeeeeeez dont say it. well, back to the rammstein subject. ja... my t_rammstein_t xanga is gone and all of my music had to be daleted (sp) as well. in fruns of there eyes as well. but since they wernt paying any atention, they only say me take away all my play lists. but the songs are still there. so im happy about that. but my b-day party was just 2 dayes ago and one of my frineds got me somthing r+ related. they told me before i opened it so thankfully i hid it in my room. it was a bunch of live concerets and music vids or fammstein! AH SO HAPPY! but i dont know where to hide it. they will find it sooner or latter. i know they will. they find out about everything. i dont know how but i think they are telapathik.(sp) they have to be... *sigh* well, thats everything that was on my chest...
wow. i feel so much better! ^^ thank you for reading all of that if you did. ^^ this may be my first post but dont wory. not every post is going to be like this. this is probably just the one day that i really need to just... tell everyone.. just screem it. then i wil feel better... (and i WILL go to a rammstein consert when they come to america in 2 years. i will!!! no matter what my mom and dad say) ok well, no more sad angry talk. (if you skiped everything or you didnt want to read my feelings, now is the time when you can start to read again.) (for those that read al of that, well... just keep on reading! ^^ no more feelings here. jsut me talking like i always do.. well, not much to say really.. after typing all of that... im out of things to say! sweatdrop ok well, thats it! ^^
~oust~
wow. i feel so much better! ^^ thank you for reading all of that if you did. ^^ this may be my first post but dont wory. not every post is going to be like this. this is probably just the one day that i really need to just... tell everyone.. just screem it. then i wil feel better... (and i WILL go to a rammstein consert when they come to america in 2 years. i will!!! no matter what my mom and dad say) ok well, no more sad angry talk. (if you skiped everything or you didnt want to read my feelings, now is the time when you can start to read again.) (for those that read al of that, well... just keep on reading! ^^ no more feelings here. jsut me talking like i always do.. well, not much to say really.. after typing all of that... im out of things to say! sweatdrop ok well, thats it! ^^
~oust~
