I assume I should start this Journal with a little introduction of myself.
I am extremely Introverted. More so in real life than on the internet. The internet is a good place for creativity, openness, and ambiguity. I usually let my friends talk for me, I sit in the back of a conversation and listen. I am an very appt listener. My friends come to me with there problems and I always try to be there for them. Although, I have been sort of a shut-in lately. It comes with the Introvert Tendencies. But its been more so than usual. Being more active on the Internet is my way of reaching out to people right now, since I am having a hard time of it in person lately. I am in the process of finding my niche again. I know I really can not find it on the internet, but I think sometimes its easier to be yourself here than face to face with people.
I have also developed this slight fear/hatred of people recently, I think it comes from over exposure with people. This last year was my first year at a large College. (I had had a year of college before that but it was a smaller version of this last one which was located in my hometown.) This last year, I lived in the dorms, walked a huge campus, and attended classes with 80+ students. I had met more people then than I have probably my entire life.
I guess I got slightly burned out. And stopped being social. I even stopped talking to my roommate off and on. And she has been my best friend since 8th grade. (This also caused some issues w/ our friendship which I still need to attend to mending.)
So now, I need interaction with people with out actually having to interact with them. I am not sure if that actually makes sense or not.
SilentIndigo · Thu Jun 22, 2006 @ 07:48am · 0 Comments |